Glückliche Gedanken!

Bloody glad i couldn't get a job this term... struggling to see exactly when i would have fitted it in!

I had no idea the work load was quite this heavy. Oh well, an improved attitude to all things 'uni' certainly helps this year. It has pleasantly surprised me just how much you get back from being nice to people, i never really bothered to make the effort before (which of course makes me sound foul) , but i may stick to it because i am smugly enjoying the results!

Todays news:

My ever (hilariously/frustratingly)- clumsy housemate informed me this morning that she spent the night in A&E after fracturing her arm on a table whilst slipping over in the restaurant she works in. I have to say, i wasn't surprised, i've been anticipating a serious accident ever since i got to know her and was amazed she had never seriously injured herself before! Not, of course, that i wish these things on her, she is just particularly accident prone.

Snow is falling everywhere. So pretty! So damn cold...
I checked with Jamie this morning that his car was parked, facing the correct way at the nearest available space to the exit of his street. I don't appreciate the snow messing with my infrequent visits from the H2B.

Spent a lovely hour or so talking to the German exchange students on our course this year. They are ever so clever and speak fluent English. They are aged 22 and 27 and one couldn't help noticing quite how pretty they are.... *sigh*
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I have a new slab of cheddar, a carving knife and a couple of apples on my bed ready to be eaten. Must do so now and remember to remove the knife before sleeping of course.

Gute Nacht x

(MOAN, MOAN MOAN)

Its about this point where i'm realising i may have bitten off more than i can chew...

Just returned from a two hour driving lesson- one hour of which was a mock test.
So my instructor is telling me how surprised he is that i did as well as i did... but that he still thinks i should move the test till after Christmas. I'm sat there listening to him offering me free lessons because he likes me and trying to prove that he's not just saying it to get more money (which i don't have) out of me. I don't need this to drag on!
All the wedding plans are going into overdrive this Christmas as it is the first time we're all together and we can do a big push to getting everything moving.
I'm leaving for a weekend in Wales with my CU in about 5 hours time. I haven't got any motivation at all to go, not sure why i am really. I got really pissed off at CU last night because this speaker woman came in and told us that any Christian going out with a non-Christian is really stupid (she put a big emphasis on 'stupid') and i felt like walking out, i don't appreciate having my intelligence insulted in this way.
I wonder if i explained my circumstances to her if she'd eat her words (very complicated relationship me and jamie have). Anyway i was having an argument with God in my head this morning cause he was making me remember this woman and what she said (and hiding my leg-warmers) and i was getting increasingly angry.
The curate in my Church back home is a lovely woman, she's been married like 25/30 odd years and her husband has just been baptised; I admire her and her perseverance. I don't understand why people frowned on her for marrying a non-Christian. I am under the impression that you, as a christian, are supposed to do whatever it takes to show the people close to you who Jesus is. I am doing that.
Its putting a lot of strain on our relationship and taking up an awful lot of the little time we have together, but i'm doing it. Now i've realised my role, i'm bloody doing it. And that women is like 'oh, your stupid'.
He's almost there anyway, he wants it and he knows it... i don't want to pressurise him. If the curate can wait 20 or 30 years then i can wait 9 months till we get married, or longer, if thats what it takes!

...Theres an awful lot on my mind today.


Topics i havent yet covered that are still stewing in my brain are:

>Should we just elope? Get married abroad? It's not like anyone approves our decision.
>Why the hell am i doing this course, i've got no idea what i'm doing
>My rooms and mess and i don;t want to start packing
>My housemates all owe me money and i'm completely broke, how is this fair?
>I've just received another smarmy e-mail from a lettings agent treating me like a 5 year old
>I'm homesick, I'm homesick, I'm homesick.
>I haven't seen Jamie in 2 weeks, It's not easy.
>Why have i moved so far away from all my real friends.

House Hunting

I am unimpressed with Leicester letting agents BLATANTLY taking advantage of young couples in the housing market.

How is it that were being asked to pay £500+ for the worlds tiniest, one bedroom, unfurnished apartment.
Life is unfair.
The search continues... I've just written an e-mail to a different lettings agent begging them to consider me as a tenant because it goes against their policy to rent to students... like were all smelly, messy, destructive people?!

I want to put it out there that we have about £500pcm to spend on a one bedroom apartment in leicester and we will be the best tenants you have ever experienced. Rent will be punctual (if not early) and the house well maintained and in all likliness will be returned to you in a cleaner state than it was rented out in.
We are looking for a nice, modern little place to start married life in as stress-free a way as possible.
Please help.


Do they care?

Like hell they do...

Hawaii...

...I tried it on and it's perfect. Just as i feared!

This is only the second time i've gone and tried on some dresses. Last time i was two stone heavier, my hair needed dyeing, i had bags under my eyes and was wearing control pants worthy of Bridget Jones herself. Unappealing to say the least!

It was different this time. I love my hair at the moment, it's getting long again (i made the stupid decision 14 months ago to have a bob) and im starting to look a bit more like i imagined myself when i walk down the isle. A very pleasant experience.

The dresses on my radar are now between £700 and £1570.

Lets face it, i can't afford it and i'm gunna have to make my own.

Back to the original plan... *grinds teeth*

Goosie-goosie-gander

I seem to be unusually fascinated by wildlife at the moment.

I think can honestly say, what i like most about Leicester is the canal. Strange, i know.

Ever since i first moved here, September 2009, i have walked over one of the (many) bridges spanning the length of it several times a day. Amongst other birds, ducks, moor-hens and canadian geese, there is a resident family of swans. I say Good-Morning to them daily. I think their beautiful.

I was just walking back from university an hour ago when a V-formation of Canadian Geese rose out of the water and flew right over my head. Aside from being slightly concerned about being pooed on, i loved the moment. Those birds are impressively huge!

I have never lived by water before. It's still a novelty to me.

I know a city canal can't compare to reservation lakes or rivers or reservoirs but it still does the job. I also love the sea. Whenever we go to the coast i have to see the sea as soon as possible. After the 5 hour drive from Chipping Norton to Sheringham (our regular mini-break destination), even if dinner is ready for us i will pop down to the coast edge so i can see it, smell it, live it, i dunno... I keep a sound recording of it on my phone, there just isn't anything like it, for me anyway!

Urban Foxie

I am AMAZED. i know i'm a countrylass but since WHEN is this normal!!?? it was so friendly and not at all scared of me...??

I have only seen two other foxes since i've been in Leicester. One from a taxi in the early hours (and i was so drunk i couldn't be sure if what i was seeing was real) and the other walking back from town i saw one jumping into a garden outside the Business campus. On the latter occassion i pointed this out to my housemate who was with me and she jumped when she saw what i was pointing and squeeling about so surely it can't be THAT common??!!

I guess i'm not so clued up on the apparent urban fox situation so excuse my nievity. I'm all for fox hunting back home, a lot of my friends do it regularly and it's just a normal thing but ive seen more foxes in Leicester than the Cotswolds... are they looking in the wrong place?!

I may have to rethink my opinions on the foxhunting issue. This fox was beautiful. I never knew this. I thought it was a cat at first, it behaved like a cat...

almost fatal venture in the emporium of perfume & white clouds...

so, today we made a fleeting visit to the local bridal shop (pronuptia leicester).

I only suggested we go because i saw in the window a bridesmaid dress for my other engaged friend (Nina)'s royal purple colour scheme. She's a relatively new friend and one unlike any other because she genuinely goes giddy with excitement at the mention of weddings, and seeing as thats the major thing we have in common, that is generally the topic of conversation. She is good for me, i think, because, despite the fact it is only what, 10 months tomorrow, till the wedding i can't seem to get particularly excited. I feel that i shouldn't and thats societies aim, to make me feel like i'm doing something stupid at a stupid age, when i know anyway that this is the right thing to do... i shouldn't be so easily influenced! Anyway talking of being influenced, it turned out the bridesmaid dress wasnt right for what Nina wanted so i noticed there were some bridal gowns on sale, so i start half-heartedly going through them but now Nina is deep into full price ones with 'ooh's and 'ahhhh's and basically i've fallen for this dress. a very expensive dress. it's called Hawaii, which is just like a sign, cos that's where were off on honeymoon... So now i've ended up booking an appointment to try on these four dresses and am in serious danger of falling in love with them. but this wasn't the plan.

I did textiles at A-level and bloody loved it. I used to work on these projects, including my prom dress, with my mum and i guess it was a major bonding thing cause we argued like cats & dogs most of the rest of the time! Most recently we made this gorgeous authentic victorian corset complete with steel boning and clasps, in salmon pink silk detailed with brown trim. gorgeous. And now were a bit pleased with ourselves and reckon we can make my wedding dress.

So i've been checking out organic silks and the like, budgeting only about £100 for this thing.

And now i've fallen for an amazing £1570 frock.

...do i even try it on.......?